why can't i love you enough

      why

loving you
[and, or]
leaving you
i am afraid

      can't

two months
too selfish
to commit

       i

missing you
and hating myself
are two sides
of the same coin

      love

how can i
be your antidote
if you are dying
by my poison

      you

i hate
how i helped you
to break down
further than your hell

      enough